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Love Straight To Your Inbox. (Or In My Case, A Mailbox)

A couple weeks ago the Holy Spirit told me to pray that I would recieve His love straight to my mailbox. He told me it would be out of people’s obedience to His voice & blow my expectations.
Every day over the past week, I have received care packages, notes, gifts, and an abundance of love straight to my inbox, just like He promised.
I am blown away each day as I go to my mailbox and find something new that extends his love. Truth be told, I went out reluctantly today, thinking there was going to be an end to it. Holy Spirit gently reminded me, “There is no end to my love” & I pulled out another handwritten note from a friend.

My encouragement to you today my friend is to set your expectations upon His love and expect His goodness. If you feel like fainting, keep trusting and not in your own strength. I know what it’s like to have a season that feels like it will never end. The suffering comes in waves upon waves and you realize HE is the only reason you’re not drowning. His grace is what has given you strength. He is the only one that has carried you through. But I also know what it’s like to tangibly feel His comfort and see His love in the midst of the darkest moments. His light pierces even the the darkest seasons of your life.

Draw near to him.
Seek him.
You will find him.
He is the only love that truly satisfies.

It will never grow cold, run dry, or run out. His love is never ending.

•Even when I go through the darkest valley, I fear no danger, for you are with me; your rod and your staff — they comfort me.  You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
Psalms 23:4‭-‬5 CSB
•I  would  have  lost  heart, unless I had believed That I would see the goodness of the Lord In the land of the living. Wait on the Lord ; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord !
Psalms 27:13‭-‬14 NKJV
•Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and the God of all comfort.  He comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any kind of affliction, through the comfort we ourselves receive from God. For just as the sufferings of Christ overflow to us, so also through Christ our comfort overflows.
2 Corinthians 1:3‭-‬5 CSB

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Losing Friend’s Because Of Your Faith, The Hard Reality Of Christianity.

If you have been a true follower of Christ for any period of time, you have dealt with the loss of relationships. Not out of your lack of love, but for the lack of the world’s love for Him. One of the most painful things we go through as true followers of Christ is that hate seems to follow us when we speak the truth in love. You can tell the world of the things God has done, but they come back with louder voices of condemnation. It is painful, isn’t it? Being freed from all the bondage of the world and wanting to share it but being rejected time and time again. Thankfully, we are not alone in this, Jesus understands quite well.

“He testifies to what he has seen and heard, and yet no one accepts his testimony. The one who has accepted his testimony has affirmed that God is true.” -John 3:32-33 CSB

My friend, this is a soul to soul reminder that you are not less than and the devil is trying to shut you up. Why is he trying to shut you up when you share your testimony? Because a testimony is proof that God is willing to do something again. The enemy doesn’t want people free from what harms them. The terrible thing about the satan’s deception is that those who are fooled into falsehood cannot see they are deceived. It is true we can tell people by their fruit. Although I wish we could see past the rotten fruit. The truth is, both you and I would help save everyone if we could.

As I was struggling with my lost loved one’s, explaining my case to those who clearly did not want to believe the truth. My husband spoke up with boldness and conviction. He spoke, “Can you imagine if Jesus never left the place where people never understood him? He would have never left Jerusalem.” This spoke volumes to me. We must not be hung up on people that do not understand the gospel when there is world full of broken people desiring for the Good News. The people who are waiting on you to speak into their life and be that Christ like example are also the lost loved one’s your brother and sister’s in Christ have been praying for to be saved. We must not get hung up on the lost loved one’s who refuse to accept the truth and trust that God is going to send people in their path to love them right out of the darkness.

Love is not keeping quiet about the truth. After all, it is the truth that sets us free. Many people do not like my testimony of being freed from homosexuality and healed from mental illness. Because I no longer side with the kingdom of darkness, I am now known as a hater from a community that claims to speak love for all. In reality, their ‘love’ conditional upon conforming to their beliefs. As I have stepped up in boldness about being set free, there has been a clear separation of those who believe in God’s Word and those who do not.

“But we belong to God, and those who know God listen to us. If they do not belong to God, they do not listen to us. That is how we know if someone has the Spirit of truth or the spirit of deception.” -1 John 4:6 NLT

The beautiful thing about Christianity is that you don’t have to believe what I believe to be loved. We love you despite the cursing and hatred we are shown. Loving people despite what they do is the perfect example we were shown by our heavenly Father. I love the very people who curse me and ridicule me. Even though they claim I hate them, I share my testimony of freedom found in Jesus for the very reason of love. Love shares the truth that sets people free, not leads them into deeper patterns of bondage.

When we are attacked for our beliefs, it is essential we remember who God says we are. That the world hated Jesus first without cause. That the reason we are so deeply hated is not because we are doing something wrong, but because we are destroying the works of the devil. The only thing satan can do is to try to make you think that this fight is against people rather than him. It is unfortunate to have those you love the most tear you down. It hurts to lose friends and even family. Jesus knows how this feels too. There was a point where he asked “Who is my Mother? Who is my brother?” (Matthew 12:46-50). He understood that flesh does not make you family or friends. It is the Spirit behind the person that incorporates the pillar of family.

As you grow closer to God and transform to be more like him, there will be people who betray you and reject you. It is not because you did anything wrong. It is because they listen to the world rather than listening to the voice of the Father. I encourage you not to waver in your faith or the truth that sets people free just because people don’t agree. The truth of the situation is they are just deceived. Sharing the truth in love and people disagreeing is something Jesus went through too. The enemy will use people to accuse you and twist your words in attempt to make you quiet. Because when you are quiet, you are no longer speaking the truth that sets people free. My friend, you are WHO He says you are. Your testimony of God’s love at work in you life is valid and something no one can take away. The devil knows this.

You may lose friends and family because of God’s power at work in your life, but God will send more people in with pure intentions for your valuable heart and soul. God will send people who love you so much that they are unwavering in the truth even when it is hard. Solely because these divine friendships don’t want less for you than what God desires for you. God will send people that are family that you will rejoice with in heaven.

Refuse to be distracted from the deception of others. Refuse to be quiet about what God has done in your life. Refuse to partner with the poisonous words that have been spewed to shut you up. You my friend, are destroying the works of the devil every time you share the truth of God’s Word. There is a great harvest for those who suffer while doing good.

I will leave you with this snippet of a conversation I had with a dear friend of mine. It is not by conforming to the world that we change it. It is by transforming to be more like him. Even though we may be hated, we will change the world one step of obedience at a time!

More Scripture For Study:

  • Romans 12:2
  • 1 John 3:1-10
  • 1 John 4:4-5
  • Proverbs 10
  • John 8
  • 2 Corinthians 6:14-18

My Prayer For You:

Dear Heavenly Father,

Restore to me the joy of your salvation and uphold me with a willing Spirit so that I will teach transgressors your way and sinners will return to you.

In Jesus Name, Amen

(Taken from Psalm 51:12-13)

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God Is Doing Something Greater (Testimony Part 1)

When everything seemed to fall apart this year with 2 car accidents, a miscarriage, and my Grandma dying, I didn’t realize that God was up to something greater.
I didn’t realize that the 2 car accidents was the vessel for God to prove his faithfulness and prove time and time again HE is our provider. He has used these 2 car accidents to allow us to be debt free and blessed us with 2 reliable vehicles that are honestly an upgrade from what we had.
I didnt realize that God wanted to use the miscarriage to help encourage women who have stayed silent and felt alone. I didn’t realize God telling me to share my weaknesses was going to help women who have endured the same to loss. It would give them the courage to speak up and many began to tell me how they now known they aren’t alone and he is with him.
I didn’t realize that my Grandma passing would teach me that it truly is the little things that matter most and teach me how to look past offense and love people, really love them. Her passing taught me life is too short to do anything less than love people where they are.
I didn’t realize that this year would test everything in me. That God was going to refine the doubts, fear, and people pleasing right out of me because honestly I didn’t knew these things existed in my heart.
Growth is painful.
Refining is painful.
But I know now, HE is my solid footing.
He is my foundation.
He was the one who never left.
He is the one who makes ALL things beautiful in it’s time.
His ways are perfect and he is trustworthy even when I don’t understand.
I know each and every one of us has been effected this year in some way, shape, or form. Maybe you can’t see how things are going to work out. Honestly, in the midst I couldn’t either. But instead of relying on what I could see, I shared my heart with God. When I did this, he gave me his peace, his promises, his compassion, love, and even sometimes loving correction.
Even if you cannot see it or feel it right now, God loves you. He is working everything out for the good for those who love him. Be unashamed, share your heart with him because he cares. He hears you. He see’s you. He loves you.
& remember, he is up to something greater.

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Desperate For Change-The Way

Have you ever been desperate for change? You have thought to yourself if things don’t change, I do not think I can handle this much longer. It feels like no matter what you do, it never seems to pan out and things seem to be getting worse, not better. I have been there personally. In the year 2016, I could not take the abuse, thoughts of depression and suicide, or the anxiety that went along with it any longer. I needed things to change but no matter what I did, it was so temporary. Things always seemed to go back to how they were and most of the time they felt worse. Did you know that there is a woman that was desperate for change in the bible? We do not have a name for her, but we do know her story. 

This woman had a physical ailment of blood for 12 years of her life and no matter what physician she went it continued to get worse. Not only was the physical a burden, but so was her mental health. In these days, because of her physical ailment she was isolated. Whatever she sat on or touched became unclean. This would leave someone alone, a lot. Taking a step in her shoes, she felt like a burden to everyone, she was constantly rejected, and looked at as an outcast. People looked at her with disgust and nothing seemed to change year after year.  

The woman with the issue of blood was desperate for change. She was so desperate for change that when it came time for Jesus to come through the town to heal someone’s daughter who was dying, she left all concern of what others thought and left her confinement, into a crowd, probably pushing others aside, just to touch him and be healed. This woman did in fact touch Jesus’ garment, which is also a big, dare I say, no no during this time. An unclean woman touching a Rabbi? But this did not matter to her, she needed something to give, something to radically change her life. She touched Jesus garment and he asked who touched him because “he felt the power leave him”. We are told that she comes before him, fear and trembling, fell at his feet, and told him the whole truth (everything not missing one part).  

I can relate to this woman. I needed change. I was sick of going through what the doctor’s called cycles. As I would get happy, I would soon realize that on the flip side of things, I would soon be hit by depression and suicidal thoughts. I tried to stay sober. I tried to get better. I tried and tried again. But the new medications made me a zombie, or they would make me attempt suicide yet again. I did not want to go through this anymore, I wanted to be healed despite what the doctors said. I wanted to feel whole. I wanted to desperately to not go through the abuse I was enduring. I needed a way out. 

What I did not know was that Jesus was about to change everything. I called out to him that cold February day in desperation of change. I, just as the woman with the issue of blood, told him the whole truth. I asked him why, I confessed all that I could remember I had done wrong, and I told him I could not do this any longer. I asked for help, I asked for change, I asked for wholeness, and to truly feel loved. I did not realize what I was going to get in return was a relationship with him. 

The woman with the issue of blood came to Jesus with boldness and a need. Jesus response to her was one of compassion and love. The first thing he said to her was who she was, his daughter. In that moment, just like I was, she was scared because of how she had been treated by others but so desperately needed to be loved. After he called her by who she was, he told her that her belief and trust had made her well and to go in peace and be healed in her affliction. The phrase go in peace that Jesus spoke means, proper wholeness that is a gift from God and to be healed of your affliction meant to be healthy in body from a disease that is painful and debilitating. Jesus response to the woman who was rejected by everyone, and no one had answers for was that he way the way, he was all she needed. Little did I know when I called out to God, he was all I needed too. 

What Jesus did for us is something no one could ever do. Just based off of this passage of scripture we see that he heals our mind, soul, and body. If we just touch the hem of his garment in desperation for change, pouring out our hearts before him in faith, he meets us there. He meets the outcasts, the drug addicts, and the mentally ill. He met the woman with the issue of blood, he met me, and he is willing to meet you there too. What people try to use against you, God will use for good. He will heal your broken heart and show you how beautiful things can be in time spent with him. With Jesus you will feel love that you have never felt before, total acceptance, unrelenting forgiveness, and hope and excitement for the future. With Jesus you will realize that nothing is impossible and nothing you do or say (now, later, or back then) can change his mind of how much he loves you. He is love and you were created to be loved and to love God and others. 

If you are desperate for change, I ask you to follow the example of the woman with the issue of blood that is no longer an issue but walked in freedom, wholeness of mind, soul, and spirit. One moment spent with Jesus changed everything. As a person who needed change because they could not see to live another day, I ask you to pour out your heart before the Lord with expectation that he is going to meet you there with love and compassion. I do not know your story, but he does and is calling you by name. When we go before the Lord, touching the hem of his garment, pouring out our hearts before him we can expect for the thing we so desperately need, love and change. Jesus changed everything for this woman, for me, and wants to change everything for you too. Will you lay your heart at his feet today? 

Further Scripture Study: 

  • Mark 5:21-30 
  • Jeremiah 31: 3 
  • John 3:16-17 
  • Psalm 139:17 
  • John 14:6 
  • Matthew 11:28 
  • Isaiah 40:28-31 

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Flaws Met With God’s Strength (Devotional)

Often satan will try to point out your “flaws” in hopes you will be so ashamed that you never mention them or see them as so bad that no good can come out of them. He is such a liar!! I was always called and accused of being over-emotional. But when God met me where I was at with his supernatural strength, everything changed. God spoke that my ‘crazy emotions’ when being used for his glory are called passion and compassion. In your weaknesses you are fused with God’s strength, so even the accused flaws are used for the good and glory of God!
Be unashamed of the darkness God has brought you out of. People need your testimony and to see the living power of Jesus Christ.
What is the devil pointing tonas a flaw that God says is actually a strength? Who can you share your testimony with today?

But he answered me, “My grace is always more than enough for you, and my power finds its full expression through your weakness.” So I will celebrate my weaknesses, for when I’m weak I sense more deeply the mighty power of Christ living in me. So I’m not defeated by my weakness, but delighted! For when I feel my weakness and endure mistreatment—when I’m surrounded with troubles on every side and face persecution because of my love for Christ—I am made yet stronger. For my weakness becomes a portal to God’s power.
2 Corinthians 12:9‭-‬10 TPT

And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony, and they did not love their lives to the death.
Revelation 12:11 NKJV