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How Real Heart Transformation Begins

If rules and regulations could transform hearts and make us clean, why would God send Jesus? I write this from a place of having felt that I am never good enough, clean enough, or holy enough. I write this from a place of vulnerability hoping that you know that you are not dealing with this alone. The truth is, without Jesus, we are not good enough. But when we get a revelation of who Jesus is and why God sent us him as the PERFECT sacrifice, we are given a new hope.

Maybe you are like me and deal with perfectionism, an unrealistic expectation of never making mistakes. In reality, it is our mistakes and our weaknesses that draw us closer to the Father’s heart. We cannot do this on our own, we need saving. We need saving from our own messes that we sometimes uintentionally or maybe even intentionally create. We need to be saved from perfectionism and not feeling good enough. We need a love that is not based upon what we do or don’t do.

We need Jesus.

When you get to know Jesus, you realize how true John 3:16 is. You begin to realize that this verse is weighty. Jesus came to die for both you and I when we had nothing to offer.

So why do we get caught up in the notion of doing rather than drawing close to God through who he is, love? I think that we unintentionally compare God’s love to an earthly love. That somehow what we do or don’t do will seperate us from the love of God. Which couldn’t be further from the truth. Remember Romans 8?

For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 8:38‭-‬39 NKJV

It is only after realizing how much God loves you that you stop performing and heart transformation begins. I am a firm believer that as a new creation a heart transformation must take place. But it is not through trying to hard you run ragged that we get there. It is through our new hope, Jesus Christ.

Let us join together remembering that nothing we do or don’t do will add or take away God’s love for us. We are new creations with a new identity. We are his masterpiece. He is the potter and we are the clay. While the process of being molded and refined can be quite painful at times, reflect on when Jesus came to save you. It wasn’t when you were put together and your outfit was just right. He loves us right in the middle of our mess and that is why his love is so profound and different than the rest.

Prayer

God, I am sorry for the times that I thought your love was based upon what I do or don’t do. I thank you that it is through your love that I am drawn to repentance. I thank you for Jesus washing me clean as snow. Today I ask you Holy Spirit to stop performing and start surrendering every part of me to you. Thank you for loving me in my mess and making it a message for those to hear. In Jesus Name, Amen.

More Scripture To Meditate On:

  • Romans 8
  • John 3:16-17
  • John 14:6
  • Hebrews 10:14
  • Isaiah 54
  • Psalm 51
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We All Fall Short

“Wisdom makes the wise person stronger than ten rulers of a city. There is certainly no one righteous on the earth who does good and never sins. Don’t pay attention to everything people say, or you may hear your servant cursing you, for in your heart you know that many times you yourself have cursed others.” -Ecclesiastes 7:19-20 CSB

This is one of those verses that is JAM packed full of goodness. The whole bible is great, but there are some verses that I feel like you can chew on for a week and get more and more out of. This is one of those meaty kind of verses. I am only going to focus on one angle of this verse and that is that we all fall short. Hence, the title of this post!

Yes, we all fall short.

I think that almost all of us know that we are not perfect and that we all miss the mark. But, there are sometimes where we can get caught up in how far we have come rather than who brought us the growth. On the other end of the spectrum, oftentimes we beat ourselves up so bad for NOT being perfect and falling short. Does either one of these resonate with you? Then keep reading!

There are two points I want to focus on in these verses:

  1. There is certainly NO ONE RIGHTEOUS on earth who does good and NEVER SINS
  2. When you feel like pointing out other people’s flaws, God gently reminds us of the times we have missed the mark.

If you have a relationship with God and Jesus is your Lord and Savior, you are righteous through the spotless blood of the lamb. You are in right standing with God. To think you are never going to slip up and miss the mark or never say a word you shouldn’t have, will quickly bring you to a place of perfectionism and condemnation. Which is not healthy!!! We are all at different places in our walk with God. Be careful not to compare, because comparison is a thief of joy. This verse in Ecclesiastes makes it crystal clear that you can be righteous and still miss the mark. Doesn’t that make you so thankful for God’s grace and mercy!? It is undeserved and unearned. Refuse to live from a place of condemnation and embrace the grace and mercy Jesus died for you to have. Do not get so caught up in what you’ve done wrong that you miss the freedom found through Jesus.

Has there been a time you where you feel like pointing out what others are doing wrong and how they have missed the mark? I think the end of this verse shows the heart of God and gives us a perfect situation to relate to.

We all have a time in our life where we have overheard someone talking bad about us. Ouch, I know it stings. The first thing our flesh wants to do is bring back the old us and show them who is boss and point out what they are doing is wrong. But, God shows us here when we try to point out what other people are doing wrong we are to remember the times we missed the mark. Because remember, NO ONE even if they are in right standing with God is perfect. Yes, we are covered in the blood of Jesus and we are forgiven. But be careful to not get caught up in what you’ve done, when in reality we would be no where without Jesus!

This is what makes God’s love so vast. He loves us despite our actions. He loves us because he is love. He is faithful because he is faithful and true. God does everything out of his abundance and WHO HE IS, rather than his love being based on what we have done or not done. We all fall short, however, God is there to clean up our mess and love us where we are at. We are all growing! Do not be too hard on yourself and do not be too hard on others. We are in this together! Despite if you have done either of these or maybe even both, God’s love for you remains the same. There is a very known verse in the bible that states “Give and it will be given back to you”. This is not only concerning money, but this concerns grace and mercy too! Want peace? Sow peace! Want love? Sow love! We all fall short, but GOD loves us right in the midst of our mess and we are to love other’s and our self with the same heart!

More Reading:

<< Romans 3:13 >> <<John 3:16>> <<Luke 6:38>>

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Even If You Stumble

God loves when we follow the plan he has for us, especially since he knows what’s perfect. He loves when we earnestly seek to do his will. He “delights” in our every step. He is well pleased.

There have been times where I have had to make a BIG decision. I prayed and got impatient, later realizing I had made a mistake. I still thought that it was God’s will. However, later I realized I had made a mistake that caused me to stumble. I did not wait long enough for him to bring clarity. Yet we see, that even when we stumble there is abundant grace and mercy. He is ready and willing to lift us up when we stumble.

Do you remember when you tried to ride a bike for the first time? Your parents let you try without training wheels? If you were like me, you ate the gravel. I mean, I stumbled hard. I was a bloody, bruised, beat up, wanted to give up kind of mess. Just as my earthly Father saw what had happened and helped me up, God will lift you up when you stumble. He is much better than your earthly father. He is your cheerleader. He was delighted you wanted to please him! He lifts you and says, here my child try this.

God sees the desire in your heart to do his will and live out his plan for your life and that pleases him. He is delighted you a pursuing to be obedient. Even if you stumble, he is there to lift you up. He is proud of you! So dust the gravel off and keep riding.

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My Messy Prayers

I have been going through a lonnnnnng season of trial and tribulations. I want to share a little bit of what God has put on my heart and taught me during this season.

He has pointed out many people throughout the bible who have been straight up vulnerable with God. It didn’t matter what they were going through they didn’t leave a piece of their heart hidden from God. Their prayers and calls to God were in deep anguish, agony, and sorrow. We see this throughout the Psalms a lot! Another example that God has had me focus on is in 1 Samuel 1-2.

Often times it wasn’t that I was intentionally keeping what I was going through hidden. I just didn’t want to complain. I didn’t want to be negative. What really happened when I didn’t tell God what was on my heart, was my thoughts of hurt and negativity later spread to my heart and soon my actions began to change. I was no longer acting in the spirit, I was acting in my flesh. In a sense, I was trying be independent instead of relying on God. Instead of speaking to him what was on my heart, I buried it down deep and it blossomed into one ugly rotten mess. Oh man was it a mess. It seems silly now, but I almost didn’t want God to feel like I was burdening him with my problems. What I was doing was keeping God out the equation. I was not coming to a solution because I was hoarding the problem. By not being real with God about what was going on, I was carrying a burden I was never meant to carry. I didn’t give room for God to be God. I was acting in pride. Not being real didn’t allow him to change my heart and see things from his perspective.

God spoke very clearly to me and said:

Be vulnerable with me. Give me enough time for me to speak. Listen to my voice. I already know what you are going to say before you say it. I am not like anyone else. I am not like those who have hurt you. My love is not conditional based upon circumstances. I am the one you can count on. I am like no one else you know. I want every piece of your heart. I am all knowing. I keep my promises. Follow the Spirit. Be a woman of prayer, endless faith, and constant worship.

I’m really not sure where I began to feel like I was “burdening God with my problems” but that is not how God feels when we come to him in surrender. We are never meant to be without the guidance of the Spirit. God wants us to come to him with our prayers being real and raw and messy. He is the one we should be coming to like that. God is the one who can turn the worst situation, feelings, or unpleasant thoughts into a thankful heart.

When we withhold what is truly going on with us from an all knowing, steadfast, everlasting, loving God, we are really cutting ourselves short. We aren’t avoiding complaining. We aren’t avoiding negativity. God wants us completely surrendered in every part of our heart. He wants us to completely trust him and be vulnerable and messy. There is nothing that can surprise him. There is nothing he can’t do. He wants to love on us through our messes. He wants to love on us through our hurt. There’s never a moment he doesn’t want to be with us.

“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.”-Philippians 4:6-7 NLT

 “Because of Christ and our faith in him,we can now come boldly and confidently into God’s presence.”-Ephesians 3:12 NLT

I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit. Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong. And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God. Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.”-Ephesians 3:16-20 NLT

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.”-Proverbs 3:5-6 ESV

Side note:I am so sorry I have been sparingly posting on here. College has slowly taken over my life but God is still at work in my heart and life. I try to post a verse of the day every single day on Instagram and Facebook. So be sure to get connected. You can find the links on My Mission & Vision page 🙂 I can’t wait to be able to write more soon but feel free to search through old posts and share what God is doing in your life. I would love to hear from you!