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“What’s your plan when you move to Louisana?” 

I keep hearing “What’s your plan when you move down to Louisiana?” “Are you going to college?” “Are you going to be a caregiver still or are you going to go back to serving? Servers make so much more money!”. I’m over here like…God hasn’t told me anything other than to marry Brad, move to Louisiana, and go to the church where he has been going to for over a year and pursue something with worship. 

To the world this seems like a naive plan…not really having everything worked out. God hasn’t told me what to do, and I know if I’m not still and try to make a plan for myself, it won’t work out. However, I can rest in that I am God’s masterpiece and he’s not finished, this is really just the beginning.

“For we are His workmanship [His own master work, a work of art], created in Christ Jesus [reborn from above–spiritually transformed, renewed, ready to be used] for good works, which God prepared [for us] beforehand [taking paths which He set], so that we would walk in them [living the good life which He prearranged and made ready for us].”-‭‭EPHESIANS‬ ‭2:10‬ ‭AMP‬‬

For those who want to know what my exact plan is when I arrive down to Louisiana, I don’t have the details. God will let me know when I need to know. I want to do what God has planned, not what I have planned. 

“Then Jesus said to His disciples, “If anyone wishes to follow Me [as My disciple], he must deny himself [set aside selfish interests], and take up his cross [expressing a willingness to endure whatever may come] and follow Me [believing in Me, conforming to My example in living and, if need be, suffering or perhaps dying because of faith in Me].”-‭‭MATTHEW‬ ‭16:24‬ ‭AMP‬‬

If this means spreading his love through working at McDonald’s and serving at church, I will. If this means volunteering at a church without a paid position,I will. If this means going to college to be a family doctor, I will. If this means *insert something you would never see yourself doing that makes you feel uncomfortable*, will you for God? 

So no, I don’t have it all figured out, but God does. With that being said, I’m in really good hands.

I pray that if you have struggled with what you’re supposed to do, that you let Holy Spirit lead your steps. That you end yourself and begin what God has planned. We know that everything will turn out for the good. We know that when we have you in our life, Lord, that we lack nothing. I pray that we hold onto your word and practice what we have learned. I pray that we follow you, no matter how crazy or uncomfortable it may feel. I thank-you for always being there, always having a plan that turns everything for the good, and allowing us to be your friend and vessel to spread the love you have for all of us. You are so good. The love you share is deeper than we could ever imagine. I just pray that I am filled with you Lord, instead of myself. In Jesus name, Amen.

P.S. If you haven’t read “The End of Me, Where Real Life in the Upside-Down Ways of Jesus Begins” by: Kyle Idleman yet, it’s an awesome read!

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Coloring & Singing With God

I’ve had a little bit of a writing block these past couple days. I’ve been pretty wore out trying to do things in my own strength to say the least. (Whoops! Can you say convicted & sleepy?) However, Holy Spirit pointed me to scripture to rest in and hold onto. I’ve memorized Philippians 4 for the most part but it just really sank in. 

 “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.  Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.  I can do all this through him who gives me strength.”-Philippians 4:6‭-‬9‭, ‬13 NIV

My eyes weren’t on Jesus & on his Kingdom, they were set on the busyness and stresses of life. Papa just ever so gently, lifted my eyes to him and let me know I’m never alone, nor do I need to try to do everything on my own. Focus on him, not what’s going on in the world. Be steadfast through the trials and trust him, thank him, and just spend time in his presence. He wants to spend time with me. 

It’s so funny when he has you come across scripture that you need, a couple days, hours, or maybe even minutes before you face exactly what his word was telling you. He never leaves me to battle un-prepared.

Yesterday, I went home and read a couple faith-based books while carrying on a continual prayer, pulled out a coloring book and turned on some Jesus Jamz & began singing to him (sorry not sorry to my family for serenading them at 2am), read some scripture and just soaked in his presence. All my anxiety, tiredness, and distractions began to dissipate as I just loved on him & spent time with my Father. It was exactly what I needed. 

Sometimes I think I just add so much to my schedule that I slack in my relationship with God. Even though I read scripture every morning & every evening, am I really studying and practicing what The Spirit points out? & how often am I truly talking to God vs. my fiancè or Mom on the phone?

Thank-you Pastor Kim for helping me understand that prayer isn’t as hard as we think it is. That the enemy just wants us to think it’s hard to get into conversation with God when really we just need to open our mouth. 

Even though I have had alot of growth over the past 17 months (All thanks to God!), I desire to grow closer to my Father. One of the things I’ve learned on my walk thus far that God’s love has no end. It continues to run deeper than I could ever imagine. Sometimes I just need to love on him a little more.