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Finding Fufillment-Purposing To Do God’s Will

Explaining to people that God led you to quit your job as a store manager to write is always fun. I have gotten many different reactions. But honestly, none of that matters.

One of the questions I was asked recently was, “Is writing fufilling?”. I answered back without any doubt, yes. But this question and answer continued to linger in my mind. Why is writing so fulfilling to me? When I was dealing with a brain injury, it hurt my heart not to write. Even journaling was hard, but I could not live a day without writing something. It was then that I was sure that writing for the Kingdom of God was not wasted & my one true purpose.

God has been kind enough to show me glimpses of the fruit that has been harvested through his words typed through my fingertips. Nothing has been more fulfilling in my life than writing to you here, writing books, and spreading what God is speaking.

Why is writing so fulfilling to me? Why does my heart ache when I can’t write? God pointed out, as clear as black and white through the words of Jesus.

Jesus said to them, My food (nourishment) is to do the will (pleasure) of Him Who sent Me and to accomplish and completely finish His work.
John 4:34 AMPC

And through David,

I delight to fulfill your will, my God, for your living words are written upon the pages of my heart.”
Psalms 40:8 TPT

Both Jesus and David were only fulfilled by doing the will of God for their life. You are I are only going to be fulfilled through carrying out the will of God. Now I am not saying that doing the will of God will be easy nor will it be comfortable. What I am saying is that doing anything other than what God has called you to do in this moment is a waste of precious time. Time is something we can never get back. It is wise for us to evaluate what God is commanding for us in this moment. What do you have for me today Lord?

Doing the will of God for you today could be as simple as praying for an extra 30 minutes for your pastors, speaking a kind word to the grocery store clerk, or feeding the homeless man sitting on the curb.

When you hear Holy Spirit speak, act.

You will see the gratification that comes from doing the Lord’s will. The most beautiful thing about doing as he speaks is that you are a vessel to show his love all over the world. He uses us if we just say yes!

Finding true fulfillment is only done through purposing to do God’s will for your life each and every single day. Pay attention to the little whispers of Holy Spirit and act. Do not focus on other people’s responses. Know that what God is asking you to do is a seed that is being planted and he is the one giving the growth. What God is asking you to do today has an eternal impact. Jesus has lived this out. Our perfect example himself has said, true nourishment to the soul is only done through the carrying out the Will of God.

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Even If You Stumble

God loves when we follow the plan he has for us, especially since he knows what’s perfect. He loves when we earnestly seek to do his will. He “delights” in our every step. He is well pleased.

There have been times where I have had to make a BIG decision. I prayed and got impatient, later realizing I had made a mistake. I still thought that it was God’s will. However, later I realized I had made a mistake that caused me to stumble. I did not wait long enough for him to bring clarity. Yet we see, that even when we stumble there is abundant grace and mercy. He is ready and willing to lift us up when we stumble.

Do you remember when you tried to ride a bike for the first time? Your parents let you try without training wheels? If you were like me, you ate the gravel. I mean, I stumbled hard. I was a bloody, bruised, beat up, wanted to give up kind of mess. Just as my earthly Father saw what had happened and helped me up, God will lift you up when you stumble. He is much better than your earthly father. He is your cheerleader. He was delighted you wanted to please him! He lifts you and says, here my child try this.

God sees the desire in your heart to do his will and live out his plan for your life and that pleases him. He is delighted you a pursuing to be obedient. Even if you stumble, he is there to lift you up. He is proud of you! So dust the gravel off and keep riding.

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All The Times I Thought God Wasn’t There…

I went to Pink Impact @ Gateway Church along with some other amazing women of god this weekend. Let me tell you, Holy Spirit taught every single one of us something this past weekend. I have many moments to share but I want to share a vision God painted for me in worship.

He brought me to these very raw moments of hurt. The times I felt lonely and like no one cared. The moments where I felt no one listening. He brought me to moments where I was abused and confused. He brought me to these moments of sorrow where I was sobbing, broken, and where I felt alone. He took me there and showed me Jesus in the background, weeping. His face was in anguish. I saw in his hand a vile of tears. Each tear I dropped was placed in this bottle.

Jesus spoke to me & said, when you felt the loneliest, I was there.

When you weeped and no one saw or cared to understand your pain, I was weeping with you.

My Child, I feel what you feel. I hurt when you hurt. All those times you thought I wasn’t there. I was.

I know every single tear you have cried. I know every reason you have felt hurt. I am who I say I am. & You are who I say you are.

Do not compare me to your earthly father. This will trip you up. Remember when you called me Abba. Remember your first love for me. Remember my goodness. Remember who I am and who you are in me.

As the worship continued I began to weep and realize that I had it all wrong. The times I didn’t understand, the ones that were the most painful, he wasn’t only there….he was weeping with me.

Even if you have the best Dad in the world, understand NOTHING compares to your heavenly Father.

God not only knows what we are going through, he feels it too. He keeps every single tear we have cried in a bottle.

On the flip side, if he can cry when we cry.

He must rejoice when we rejoice. Abba is a good father.

You keep track of all my sorrows.
You have collected all my tears in your bottle.
You have recorded each one in your book.”-Psalm 56:8

“Where have you laid him?” he asked. “Come and see, Lord,” they replied. Jesus wept.”-John 11:34‭-‬35 NIV

“The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”-Deuteronomy 31:8 NIV

“May your unfailing love be my comfort, according to your promise to your servant.”-Psalm 119:76 NIV

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If you are feeling discouraged… (YouTube Video)

If you are feeling discouraged or down in the dumps, I hope this YouTube video I made speaks life into your life 🙂

It is straight from the heart!

Here’s the link:

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You Don’t Have To Live With This Pain Any Longer-YouTube Video

After hearing the news of 2 very young people from back home taking their own life, God laid it on my heart to speak up and speak life into those who are struggling. You are not alone & you are so loved.

Here’s the link to the YouTube channel where you can check out the latest updates: Speak Life YouTube Channel

Direct Link To Today’s Video: You Don’t Have To Live With This Pain Any Longer


If you are more of a reader like me, here’s part of my testimony shared right here on Speak Life-SCLNMWYG: The Day God Saved Me From Suicide