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Oh My Jesus😭

Please take the time to prayerfully read through this scripture before reading the post:

Who has believed our message? To whom has the Lord revealed his powerful arm? My servant grew up in the Lord ’s presence like a tender green shoot, like a root in dry ground. There was nothing beautiful or majestic about his appearance, nothing to attract us to him. He was despised and rejected— a man of sorrows, acquainted with deepest grief. We turned our backs on him and looked the other way. He was despised, and we did not care. Yet it was our weaknesses he carried; it was our sorrows that weighed him down. And we thought his troubles were a punishment from God, a punishment for his own sins! But he was pierced for our rebellion, crushed for our sins. He was beaten so we could be whole. He was whipped so we could be healed. All of us, like sheep, have strayed away. We have left God’s paths to follow our own. Yet the Lord laid on him the sins of us all. He was oppressed and treated harshly, yet he never said a word. He was led like a lamb to the slaughter. And as a sheep is silent before the shearers, he did not open his mouth. Unjustly condemned, he was led away. No one cared that he died without descendants, that his life was cut short in midstream. But he was struck down for the rebellion of my people. He had done no wrong and had never deceived anyone. But he was buried like a criminal; he was put in a rich man’s grave. But it was the Lord ’s good plan to crush him and cause him grief. Yet when his life is made an offering for sin, he will have many descendants. He will enjoy a long life, and the Lord ’s good plan will prosper in his hands. When he sees all that is accomplished by his anguish, he will be satisfied. And because of his experience, my righteous servant will make it possible for many to be counted righteous, for he will bear all their sins. I will give him the honors of a victorious soldier, because he exposed himself to death. He was counted among the rebels. He bore the sins of many and interceded for rebels.
Isaiah 53:1‭-‬12 NLT

As I read this chapter, I cannot help but be emotional about what Jesus had endured for us to be whole and healed.

I reflect on the fact that he had done absolutely nothing wrong, never decieving anyone, never sinned, and suffered the worst kind of death for us. Jesus did everything out of the abundance of his love and still does today.

Take a moment to reflect:

Can you imagine being falsely accused and going through a crucifixion? Being alone and laying down your life for those who won’t even acknowledge who you are? Laying down your life for those who ultimately betrayed you?

Not forgetting to mention, Jesus even though he was oppressed and suffering, stayed quiet and did not speak a word.

I think this speaks volumes about how we are called to live. Jesus being our perfect example, never complained and only spoke out of love.

Most of us, myself included, complain on a daily basis. The weather is too hot, too cold, ect. Yet, Jesus going through the worst suffering all alone and not deserving it, chose to be quiet and endure.

This blows me away and also convicts me to ask Holy Spirit for help. I need his help with complaining (which is the absence of thankfulness) but to also help me be quiet when I suffer. If I cannot say anything in love or thankfulness, it is better to say nothing at all.

Many times love comes in the form of correction. As I have been meditating on this, Holy Spirit has gently corrected me and showed me areas where I need to be more diligent and seek him in. But the reason why it made a difference is because it was done in love.

A question I had for God was how did the Lord endure such gruesome suffering and not complain or speak?

Lets be real, humble, and transparent. I have a hard time not complaining about the weather and when someone does me wrong I even have had the urgency to lash back. But Jesus, he doesn’t do this. How!?

If you read there is a verse that he pointed out to me that changed my perspective not only on suffering but the love of Jesus.

“When he sees all that is accomplished by his anguish, he will be satisfied. And because of his experience, my righteous servant will make it possible for many to be counted righteous, for he will bear all their sins. I will give him the honors of a victorious soldier, because he exposed himself to death. He was counted among the rebels. He bore the sins of many and interceded for rebels”-Isaiah 53:11‭-‬12 NLT

First, Jesus was not focused on his anguish and his suffering. He had the eternal perspective that what he was enduring was worth every ounce of pain he felt.
When we are suffering we are not called to focus on the things of earth but the things of heaven.

Second, his eternal perspective was a relationship with us. Jesus suffered to set us free, make his whole, and for our healing.

I am in awe that he not only stayed quiet during the trials because he only spoke in love and thankfulness. I am also in awe that his eternal perspective that gave him the strength to endure the worst kind of suffering was his love for us. Yall I am in tears writing this.

My prayer for you today is that even if you are suffering, being falsely accused, feel alone, and are being rejected. You remember that Jesus knows how you feel and died for you to be whole and healed. I pray that you forgive as freely as he has forgiven us. I pray that he puts a door over your mouth so you may not speak thoughtlessly and you always speak the truth in love or do not speak at all, following his perfect example. I pray that you continually get a deeper revelation of his love for you and your grab ahold of his love that makes you whole and healed.

ABBA, I thank you for sacraficial servant love. I can only pray that we follow your example. I thank you for your mercy and grace and that you have died to make us whole, free, and healed. There is nothing you will not do for us. In Jesus name, Amen.

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“How many cups of coffee have you had this morning?”-Husband

I may have woken up at 4:38ish this morning and am still going. IT’S A MIRACLE! (kidding, but seriously I am not a morning person) I grabbed an iced coffee from the kitchen and headed to our war room because I knew Abba wanted to do a work in me. What is funny is that my husband came home from PT this morning around 7:50ish as I was just finishing up my Quiet Time with God. I walked out and his eye got big and he asked, “How many cups of that *looks down at my 1/4 full now melted iced coffee* have you had this morning?”.

The amazing thing is, that when he left this morning I was groggy and kind of cranky to be honest. No one likes a noisy house before 6am. But when he came home, and I walked out of the war room, I was changed.
This is what we should yearn for every single time we go into our quiet time with Abba. To have our hearts changed and our minds renewed when we walk out. I walked out this morning with authority and excitement because I just spent time with my heavenly father. With this time he brought revelation, wisdom, and understanding. He gave me deeper understanding of him and who I am in him. He spoke clearly through his word.

When we have quiet time with God we should:

  1. Be expectant to hear from him through his word and through prayer
  2. Not put a time limit on God and what he wants to do in our hearts and minds
  3. Our hearts should be changed and our minds renewed
  4. Meditate on what he spoke to us throughout our day
  5. If we don’t understand, ASK.

Just like my husband thought I had 7 iced coffees this morning, you leave Abba’s presence changed.

(Oh and by the way, I only had 3/4 of a cup of iced coffee)

“Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.’ ”-Matthew 4:4 (NIV)
“How can a young person stay on the path of purity?
By living according to your word.
I seek you with all my heart;
do not let me stray from your commands.
 I have hidden your word in my heart
that I might not sin against you.”-Psalm 119:9-11 (NIV)

“Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.”-Romans 12:2 (NIV)

“Very early in the morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where he prayed.”-Mark 1:35