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Walking Through The Valley~With The God of All Comfort

Have you ever been through a period of time where you cannot wait for it to be over, but God keeps you there? Let us be real. You may be going through it right now. This period feels strenuous, weighty, and you really begin to wonder if the Lord’s burden for us to carry is light. You begin to wonder that all that he has promised you is really going to come to pass and if you’ll ever see the light at the end of the tunnel. It is easy to look around you and wonder if anyone can see that what you are going through and even sometimes wonder if God truly understands.

I have learned that the valleys will teach you lessons that the mountain tops never can. When we go through these moments, I believe it is important to be aware of what is going on in our hearts. The valley’s make us ask the hard questions such as, do I really trust God is good and for me? Do I really believe? Is there a lie I am believing about who God is? Do I have the correct perspective of who I am in my heavenly father’s eyes? Am I really following Jesus or am I just going through the motions of meaningless religion? In these moments of hardship, when we ask these questions, we are inviting God in to prune off what will not last through the fire. This also gives us the chance to grow into a deeper and more intimate relationship with him.

We are often tempted during the hardships to want to run away from what is going on or quit in the middle. But what if what we are going through right now has a deeper purpose? We do not always look at a deeper purpose in our suffering, but I believe is essential to look beyond the surface in the midst.

“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and the God of all comfort. He comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any kind of affliction, through the comfort we ourselves receive from God. For just as the sufferings of Christ overflow to us, so also through Christ our comfort overflows.” -2 Corinthians 1:3-5 CSB

God is knowns as the Father of Mercies and the God of All Comfort. Being the Father of Mercies means that he has deep feelings about the difficulty and misfortune you are walking through, he is sympathetic and empathetic. We serve a God that not only knows about the valley’s because he was there (look at the life of Jesus). But God is walking with us through the valley’s through the power of the Holy Spirit. He did not leave us alone. What great news that even in what feels like our loneliest moments we are not alone. Thankfully because we have Holy Spirit, we have the best help, counselor, and comforter we could ever ask for. God is also known as the God of all Comfort which means God is our refreshment in times of need. God is ready and willing to encourage and strengthen us when we ask.

God does not take what you are going through lightly. Which is exactly why Paul reminds us that our suffering is not wasted. He exclaims over and over in 2 Corinthians 1 that comfort is here and gently reminds us to not to give up! Paul reminds us here that what we are going through is not wasted but is going to help others. Aren’t you thankful for the people who have helped you through suffering because they walked it before you? God takes what the enemy meant for evil and turns it out for good!

If you are suffering right now, remember comfort is here. Look no further than the promise of the Holy Spirit. It is so easy to look around and point out everything that is happening around you. But it is of great importance to look deeper and see what God is doing in you and what he is going to do through you. We must see things through a heavenly reality rather than an earthly. When we focus on Jesus, we can see that even when it feels like this is never going to end, comfort is here. Even when it feels like the promises are never going to pass, God says his promises are yes and Amen! When you are tired, ask and he will renew your strength. Where suffering seems to overflow, this is where God’s comfort will overflow. God is with you, his intentions are good, and his love never fails. Lay the burdens you have been feeling at his feet and know that he is willing and able to comfort you through this.  

Further Scripture Study:

  • Isaiah 41:10
  • 2 Corinthians 1
  • Romans 8
  • Psalm 23:4
  • John 14:26
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You Don’t Have To Live With This Pain Any Longer-YouTube Video

After hearing the news of 2 very young people from back home taking their own life, God laid it on my heart to speak up and speak life into those who are struggling. You are not alone & you are so loved.

Here’s the link to the YouTube channel where you can check out the latest updates: Speak Life YouTube Channel

Direct Link To Today’s Video: You Don’t Have To Live With This Pain Any Longer

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If you are more of a reader like me, here’s part of my testimony shared right here on Speak Life-SCLNMWYG: The Day God Saved Me From Suicide

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-Grandma Dorsey-Why You Impacted My Life On Such A Great Scale-

I have really been thinking about my Grandma Dorsey within these past couple weeks. To the point where I woke up out of a deep sleep. I’ve been up since 3:30am, reminiscing all the wonderful memories we shared together. One thing that has really stuck out to me since she passed in October of 2016 is how my relationship with God has flourished. Back in 2016, I was still struggling with addiction. I didn’t know who I was. I struggled with my purpose of why I was even here. In February of that year, I just left Harbor Oaks, a hospital for suicidal thoughts. I was saved that February and through the many talks with my Grandmother, she continually loved & supported me in my walk, even with not being at a Catholic Church. She struggled with it for a while. Always telling me how I was welcome back and she knew I would come back. Towards the end of her life here on earth, one thing really stuck with me. It was how she grabbed my hand and said, “Now, you stay at that church. It’s okay. Whatever way you focus on what’s important, that’s okay with me.” My Grandma saw that unity in the church was what God was really after. We were all loving on the same God. We were all loving on Jesus. She also knew and saw the change in me before I ever did, Holy Spirit. When I went before a rather large group of people at her showing, something I said really has continually proved itself over the years.

“If I can love her as much as I love her & she can love me as much as she loves me….I can’t even imagine how much God loves us.”

My grandmother showed me the unconditional love of Jesus. She lived every single day like her eternal life depended on it. My grandmother’s love brought me to having a relationship with God.

When she went home, I could no longer depend on her for understanding of biblical principles. I couldn’t depend on her prayers anymore. What really got me was the fact I couldn’t hear her voice and her wise words every day like I used to. But, her work here was complete.

I really believe God used my Grandmother’s passing, to bring me where I am today. She died to save mine. Just as Jesus died to save us. I know that God works everything out for the good for those that are for him. Even in these instances, death.

In the past 2 years God has completely flipped my life upside down. He has changed me from the inside out. My heart is no longer cold or misunderstood. I have the blood of the most high king pumping through my veins.

I am forgiven.

I am loved.

I am healed.

I am precious in the sight of Abba.

I know my purpose .

I am God’s masterpiece.

I am free.

I am a Child Of God.

If you would’ve asked me where I saw myself in 2 years on Valentine’s Day of February 2016. I couldn’t have been able to tell you because my suicidal thoughts haunted me every single moment of every single day. My past taunted me. I used drugs and alcohol to cope. I looked for my value in other people’s opinions and guys who didn’t care about anything other than what I had to offer physically.

Valentines Day, February of 2018 I am in Louisiana, laying next to my wonderful husband that I prayed for since 2014. (Yes, I prayed for years! Totally worth the wait!) While my puppy that I always wanted is laying on the floor. I am currently being discipled to be a Youth Pastor. I am writing a book along with this blog. I have saw miracles of healing and revelation run through my hands and out of my mouth. Holy Spirit has done some work these past 2 years as God called me to be obedient. I will be returning to college and going to Lee University for Ministry Leadership With Emphasis In Counseling. A dream I had before God was at the throne of my heart is now going to be used for his glory.

If my Grandma wouldn’t of went throught what she went through and went to her eternal home when she did, I’m not sure I’d be here today. If I would’ve successfully taken my life when I wanted to, God wouldn’t of had the chance to make me into something beautiful. I feel like some of the greatest people, with the biggest futures, are blindsided by satans lies and take their own life. If my Grandmother wouldn’t of displayed Christ’s love and continually prayed for me, I wouldn’t be where I am today.

Without God, I am nothing.

I am forgiven.

I am loved.

I am healed.

I am precious in the sight of Abba.

I know my purpose .

I am God’s masterpiece.

I am free.

I am a Child Of God.

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Losing My Grandma & Praising God Through The Storm

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“As a deer longs for flowing streams,
so I long for you, God.
I thirst for God, the living God.
When can I come and appear before God?
My tears have been my food day and night,
while all day long people say to me,
“Where is your God?”
I remember this as I pour out my heart:
how I walked with many,
leading the festive procession to the house of God,
with joyful and thankful shouts.
Why, my soul, are you so dejected?
Why are you in such turmoil?
Put your hope in God, for I will still praise him,
my Savior and my God. 
I am deeply depressed;
therefore I remember you from the land of Jordan
and the peaks of Hermon, from Mount Mizar. 
Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls;
all your breakers and your billows have swept over me.
The Lord will send his faithful love by day;
his song will be with me in the night—
a prayer to the God of my life.
I will say to God, my rock,
“Why have you forgotten me?
Why must I go about in sorrow
because of the enemy’s oppression?”
My adversaries taunt me,
as if crushing my bones,
while all day long they say to me,
“Where is your God?”
Why, my soul, are you so dejected?
Why are you in such turmoil?
Put your hope in God, for I will still praise him,
my Savior and my God” -Psalms 42

As I read Psalms 42 this morning, it just sank in a little more that true praise and worship is a lifestyle and an expression of the heart.

In Psalms 42, the writer is depressed and still proceeds to focus on what God has already done, and not the dark period he’s going through right now. The writer expresses that they have been crying day and night, yet they still chose to praise God. While the world asks him “Where is your God?” he is so founded in God that he doesn’t waiver from his faith, he continues to praise God through the storm. 

When I first started my walk with God, I thought everything was going to perfect! No more pain, no more sorrow, no more hurting, and then life happened. My Grandma was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer and I felt like the world was crumbling beneath me. I had the choice, to focus on God or to focus on my pain and hurting of watching someone I loved so much suffer. During the struggle of watching her leave us, I cried out to God, I didn’t understand why my Grandmother, out of all people, had to suffer like this. She was such a woman of God and faith. It didn’t make sense. I was angry, confused, and distraught. I began to reflect on how far God had brought me that year. I remembered that he saved my life from suicide, helped me battle addictions, told me and made me understand I was forgiven, and made me feel loved.

I soon realized the enemies tactics was to bring me back to where I used to be. To show the progress that God had made was a joke and make it seem like it never happened. “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.” -John 10:10 

NOT TODAY SATAN!

My Grandma soon passed, and it was seriously the weirdest thing. I felt joy. I was driving down I-69 and saw a younger her, dressed in a white dress, glowing, and dancing around in circles like a young girl would do in her youth. I knew that going to be with Abba was all she ever hoped for. I felt peace that she was no longer suffering here and was at her true home. God sent me many signs about her being at home with her. Some of them are quite funny. I’ll have to write about them later!

We often think that life should be easier than what it is here, but the truth is, this isn’t our home. We don’t belong here forever. We may suffer here at times, but it brings us to be more like Christ. I do go through things, we all do, but now I just have the strength to do it.

“But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ.”-Philippians 3:20 NIV

“I am able to do all things through him who strengthens me.”-Philippians 4:13 CSB

When you don’t feel like praising God is really when you should be doing in the most! One thing that has really helped me, is writing down all the blessings and answered prayers that has happened in my life. I even include the little things! We know that every good thing comes from heaven! (James 1:17) So when I have those rough days, I can look back like the Psalmist and see everything he has done for me already. He is faithful and his love is unconditional and unwavering, no matter the circumstance or what you may have done. “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever.”-Hebrews 13:8 GNT

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I miss you every single day, but I cannot wait to see you again! RIP Grandma! 10.05.2017