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Desperate For Change-The Way

Have you ever been desperate for change? You have thought to yourself if things don’t change, I do not think I can handle this much longer. It feels like no matter what you do, it never seems to pan out and things seem to be getting worse, not better. I have been there personally. In the year 2016, I could not take the abuse, thoughts of depression and suicide, or the anxiety that went along with it any longer. I needed things to change but no matter what I did, it was so temporary. Things always seemed to go back to how they were and most of the time they felt worse. Did you know that there is a woman that was desperate for change in the bible? We do not have a name for her, but we do know her story. 

This woman had a physical ailment of blood for 12 years of her life and no matter what physician she went it continued to get worse. Not only was the physical a burden, but so was her mental health. In these days, because of her physical ailment she was isolated. Whatever she sat on or touched became unclean. This would leave someone alone, a lot. Taking a step in her shoes, she felt like a burden to everyone, she was constantly rejected, and looked at as an outcast. People looked at her with disgust and nothing seemed to change year after year.  

The woman with the issue of blood was desperate for change. She was so desperate for change that when it came time for Jesus to come through the town to heal someone’s daughter who was dying, she left all concern of what others thought and left her confinement, into a crowd, probably pushing others aside, just to touch him and be healed. This woman did in fact touch Jesus’ garment, which is also a big, dare I say, no no during this time. An unclean woman touching a Rabbi? But this did not matter to her, she needed something to give, something to radically change her life. She touched Jesus garment and he asked who touched him because “he felt the power leave him”. We are told that she comes before him, fear and trembling, fell at his feet, and told him the whole truth (everything not missing one part).  

I can relate to this woman. I needed change. I was sick of going through what the doctor’s called cycles. As I would get happy, I would soon realize that on the flip side of things, I would soon be hit by depression and suicidal thoughts. I tried to stay sober. I tried to get better. I tried and tried again. But the new medications made me a zombie, or they would make me attempt suicide yet again. I did not want to go through this anymore, I wanted to be healed despite what the doctors said. I wanted to feel whole. I wanted to desperately to not go through the abuse I was enduring. I needed a way out. 

What I did not know was that Jesus was about to change everything. I called out to him that cold February day in desperation of change. I, just as the woman with the issue of blood, told him the whole truth. I asked him why, I confessed all that I could remember I had done wrong, and I told him I could not do this any longer. I asked for help, I asked for change, I asked for wholeness, and to truly feel loved. I did not realize what I was going to get in return was a relationship with him. 

The woman with the issue of blood came to Jesus with boldness and a need. Jesus response to her was one of compassion and love. The first thing he said to her was who she was, his daughter. In that moment, just like I was, she was scared because of how she had been treated by others but so desperately needed to be loved. After he called her by who she was, he told her that her belief and trust had made her well and to go in peace and be healed in her affliction. The phrase go in peace that Jesus spoke means, proper wholeness that is a gift from God and to be healed of your affliction meant to be healthy in body from a disease that is painful and debilitating. Jesus response to the woman who was rejected by everyone, and no one had answers for was that he way the way, he was all she needed. Little did I know when I called out to God, he was all I needed too. 

What Jesus did for us is something no one could ever do. Just based off of this passage of scripture we see that he heals our mind, soul, and body. If we just touch the hem of his garment in desperation for change, pouring out our hearts before him in faith, he meets us there. He meets the outcasts, the drug addicts, and the mentally ill. He met the woman with the issue of blood, he met me, and he is willing to meet you there too. What people try to use against you, God will use for good. He will heal your broken heart and show you how beautiful things can be in time spent with him. With Jesus you will feel love that you have never felt before, total acceptance, unrelenting forgiveness, and hope and excitement for the future. With Jesus you will realize that nothing is impossible and nothing you do or say (now, later, or back then) can change his mind of how much he loves you. He is love and you were created to be loved and to love God and others. 

If you are desperate for change, I ask you to follow the example of the woman with the issue of blood that is no longer an issue but walked in freedom, wholeness of mind, soul, and spirit. One moment spent with Jesus changed everything. As a person who needed change because they could not see to live another day, I ask you to pour out your heart before the Lord with expectation that he is going to meet you there with love and compassion. I do not know your story, but he does and is calling you by name. When we go before the Lord, touching the hem of his garment, pouring out our hearts before him we can expect for the thing we so desperately need, love and change. Jesus changed everything for this woman, for me, and wants to change everything for you too. Will you lay your heart at his feet today? 

Further Scripture Study: 

  • Mark 5:21-30 
  • Jeremiah 31: 3 
  • John 3:16-17 
  • Psalm 139:17 
  • John 14:6 
  • Matthew 11:28 
  • Isaiah 40:28-31 

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The Element of Change

Holy Spirit has had me on the subject of life’s changes and how we handle change for a while.

As you may or may not know, my husband and I have went through so much change since we have been married. Most recently, his contract ended for being active duty military and he is now pursuing National Guard. In the upcoming months to this, the Lord directed me to give my two week notice and pursue writing full time. (Have you noticed more content? This is why!) All of this was SOOOO uncomfortable and we are still following Jesus’ leading through this process. We do not have it all figured out.

But, we do know the one who does.

There are quite a few verses I am personally holding onto throughout all of this change that Holy Spirit has brought to my attention:

  • Go ahead and make all the plans you want, but it’s the Lord who will ultimately direct your steps.Proverbs 16:1 TPT
  • Before you do anything,
    put your trust totally in God and not in yourself.
    Then every plan you make will succeed
    . –Proverbs 16:3 TPT
  • We may toss the coin and roll the dice,
    but God’s will is greater than luck
    . –Proverbs 16:33 TPT
  • Trust in the Lord with all your heart;
        do not depend on your own understanding.
    Seek his will in all you do,
        and he will show you which path to take.
    Proverbs 3:5-6 NLT
  • For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen. If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me. Jeremiah 29:11-13 NLT

While we are in the waiting for the promises to come to pass, we often are tempted to look at what is front of us, rather than looking to the one who promised. When we do this, the enemy can come in easily to distract us and tempt us into following what seems like good, but is really just a replica for what God has for us. Or he can come in and plant seeds of doubt if we are not being careful to take EVERY THOUGHT captive. He is called the father of all lies for a reason. However, when we focus on Jesus our promise keeper, the way maker, we can dwell in his peace, and know that what he has promised is GOING to come to pass. If the promise depended on us, we would be in trouble. We all miss the mark. But HIS faithfulness does not depend on us. He is FAITHFUL because that is WHO he is, FAITHFUL AND TRUE.

While it is of great importance to be obedient, understand that even if we miss the mark, there is an abundance of grace and mercy. God knew that sometimes we were going to stumble and this is why he gave us the greatest gift of all, Jesus. I also love these awesome promises in Psalm 37.

“If they stumble badly they will still survive,
for the Lord lifts them up with his hands.
I was once young, but now I’m old.
Not once have I found a lover of God forsaken by him,
nor have any of their children gone hungry.
Instead, I’ve found the godly ones
to be the generous ones who give freely to others.
Their children are blessed and become a blessing.”
Psalm 37:24-26 TPT

When we put trust in our own plan and work in our own strength, we are sure to become weary. Our thoughts become anxious and we can even try to do rather than just trust. There are many things that have happened or are going to happen in the future that God’s only command to us (more of a question) is,“Do you TRUST me?”. In the midst of change it is of GREAT importance that we focus on the only one who is STEADFAST.

“Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever.”Hebrews 13:8 NKJV

When we look to Jesus and lay our plans in his hands, we know that he is willing to exchange our flawed plan for HIS PERFECT WILL and we also know that EVERYTHING is working out for the good. When we trust who he is, and lean not on what we can see, he will direct our steps. When he directs our steps because our trust is in him rather than ourselves, we know the plan must succeed. These are all promises from him to us and he is not a man that he can lie.

I am not sure where you are, but Abba does. Today he is asking you not to try to figure everything out, but to trust him.

Seek him and you will surely find.

Know there is plenty of grace and mercy for the both of us.

Do not waver in unbelief, but PRAISE HIM in advance for what is going coming to pass and THANK HIM for what he has already done.

Praise him for WHO he IS!

He is faithful and his plans are so much greater than you and I can ever imagine.

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Taking The Leap

How many times have we go to do what God has called us to do and then doubt came creeping in? Or can you remember a time when you have gone to take a big leap of faith and you have accidentally stumbled on the way to making the jump?

We all have dealt with fear, doubt, and worry.

As I was drinking my coffee outside this morning I saw a squirrel running across the fence, unto our shed, and then he paused. He looked at the tree which his final destination, which was a pretty far distance away, and LEAPED. To my surprise, squirrels can leap a distance. I was amazed. Holy Spirit’s gentle voice said, “If he would’ve hesitated he would have been like one of those squirrel videos you see that miss their target”. My first reaction was to laugh at the fact that God brought up a squirrel video. But then I became still and listened. He began to show me that we are the squirrel and where we are now is on the shed. Where he has called us to be is on the tree. There are times when he tells us to make the jump and we become hesitant because we feel like we are going to fail or something could go wrong. What he revealed to me was a giant hand, his hand, which will uphold us even when we stumble.

If you do not know already, we get our sense of humor from God. He is hilarious and I think enjoys laughter even more than we do. He speaks to us in different ways and this morning he knew that a squirrel was the way to speak to me.

Wherever you are in this moment, if God is telling you to make the jump or you in a season of transition and change, his hand is withholding you. Most of the time the fear of failure and hesitation is what makes us miss the target. But if we just trust that God is for us, that because he has called us to it he will equip us to do it, and that he is working everything out for our good, our faith should increase and we should reach the “tree”. Do not let fear paralyze you. He does not give you a spirit of fear. He gives you power, love, and a sound mind. His gentle hand is keeping you afloat in your days of trouble, he is with you always.

A man’s steps are established by the Lord, and He takes pleasure in his way. Though he falls, he will not be overwhelmed, because the Lord holds his hand.”-Psalm 37:23-24 CSB


“For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” -2 Timothy 1:7 NKJV