I have went 9 days without writing a single post and it is now 4:15am on a Wednesday night ,(some it may be Thursday morning), and I feel led to write. Sorry in advance for the typos.
There has been something placed on my heart this past week and it’s how faithful God is, even if I am off. I guess this took me by surprise, probably more than it should’ve. However, I have not truly tried to deepen my relationship with God on a daily basis until about a year ago.
I feel like we often forget where we’ve came from, the trials we have survived, and the growth that has happened. When I look where I was a year ago, dealing with addiction of pills, drinking, and many other temporary pleasures to mask the pain…I realize how many obstacles God has gotten me through, how many times I’ve been forgiven because of Jesus Christ, and what a blessing it is to have Holy Spirit to help make every decision, speak, hear, and see what we are meant to, and then act accordingly. I am thankful for Holy Spirit, for the scripture that has stood out when I needed it most, for the times that when I didn’t have the boldness or courage, the spirit led me to pray for the stranger anyways. I am thankful for the complete healing that The Lord has given me on a couple different occasions.
Even though I came from a spot of, depression, anxiety, and addiction, God just reached out and said “I love you. Do you trust me? I got this.”
It amazes me how completely lined up our lives are. No matter where I have been over this past year, Abba, has placed people in my life to help strengthen my relationship with him. It excites me that I’ll never be able to reach the depth of his love here on earth. It sets a fire inside my soul to get to know him on a deeper level each day.
Much of this walk so far is trusting him. When I trust what he has planned it always is so much better in the long run. I’ve never followed what God has led me to do and been like “Wow, I’m never going to listen to him again.”
I guess what I find comforting and has helped me tremendously over the past year is the fact that Jesus is the same yesterday, today, and forever. (Hebrews 13:8)
He will always have plans for me, plans that will prosper. (Jeremiah 29:11)
He will always work things out for the good, for everyone, not just me. (Romans 8:28)
When the enemy tries to come creep in with his sneaky lies, God has given me the armor to defeat him and has promised me that he can’t hurt me and has no authority over me. (Ephesians 6:10-18, Luke 10:19)
When I may become anxious, he tells me that he cares and says stop carrying what you were never meant to carry. (Philippians 4:6-7, Psalm 55:22)
Knowing the word of God has not only helped me realize a lot of the enemy’s lies, but it has also given me the truth to replace the lies with so I can come to victory.
I now, wouldn’t change the things I’ve been through. The many forms of abuse, dealing with suicidal thoughts for 15 years, the addictions, the pain, and agony, because now I am able to help others.
I know this post has been kind of all over the place…but I know someone needed something, somewhere in here.
Maybe you were believing a lie about who God is, maybe you just needed a sign to hold on, maybe you just needed a reminder of his promises…
I pray that these posts have helped you grow as much as they have helped me.
Please feel free to message me with any questions or prayer requests @ thatredheadgirl122@gmail.com
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