Our belief in God is in direct correlation to our trust. When we have a hard time believing, we are really having a hard time trusting. There are plenty of religious doctrine, false teachers, and life experiences that have given us the opportunity to stray from truth. Our life experiences often frame what we believe is true about God, such as we often associate God to earthy father. We often associate Jesus to our siblings and our mother with the Holy Spirit. In fact, our fathers and mother’s are supposed to the example in marriage to his characteristics and qualities. However, we live in a very broken world. People who are supposed to represent him do not follow him or know him at all and we are left with brokenness and a false reality of who God truly is. Since we have been born, we have been experiencing things that shape our beliefs about who he is without even realizing it.
I have realized in my personal life I have had to unlearn almost everything I had originally learned about God. The God I did believe in was not easy to trust and completely false. The God I knew as a child was distant and a dictator and loved to punish. His love was based upon performance, if you do this you gain more favor. If you do not do this he would love you less. All of these things are completely false about who God actually is. I realized when I first came into a relationship with the Lord he was nothing like I thought he was. In fact, his word would reveal that he was closer than my breath. Even at my darkest, he loves me. While he hates sin, he met me in my mess, and died on the cross to save me from the condemnation that I always felt with religion. In fact, the more I read, the more I realized that religion killed Jesus. While the law was good, it was unattainable through flesh which is exactly why I needed saving and savior named Jesus in the first place.
Most of what I learned about God growing up was false. There have been many times in my life where I have had doubts about what God had promised and questioned his character. What I have come to find is that in these moments where I do have doubts, is that I am believing a lie about who he is. In the moments where I was scared to ask questions about who God is, the questions were an opportunity to grow closer and be freed from lies and set free in truth.
We see in the life of Abram and many other people in the bible that they had questions for God too. It is not bad to have questions, in fact, this is a god given opportunity for him to tear down the lies of who you thought he was and replace it with who he truly is.
Abram, later known as Abraham, is known for his faith. In fact, he is known as the ‘Father of Faith’. Yet as you read through Genesis 15, we see him asking God questions like,
But Abram said, “Lord God, what can you give me, since I am childless and the heir of my house is Eliezer of Damascus?” Abram continued, “Look, you have given me no offspring, so a slave born in my house will be my heir.” -Genesis 15:2-3 CSB
But he said, “Lord God, how can I know that I will possess it?” -Genesis 15:8 CSB
How many times have you and I echoed questions like these? God you gave me this promise but it is not even close to what I can see. How are you going to be able to do this? Or God, what can I do to posses the promise?
God’s responses to Abram are full of grace, mercy, and love. After all, that is who God is. If you have not read Genesis 15, please do this now! Even if you have now would be a good time to read it again. In verse 4-5 the Lord speaks his promises yet again to Abram and gives him the example of the stars in the sky to hold onto. What was Abram’s response?
Abram believed the Lord, and he credited it to him as righteousness. -Genesis 15:6 CSB
The word believed here means rendered, represents him to be what he says he is to be. So, Abram believed God and rendered that he was a good father, creator and caretaker. Abram saw God as faithful, trustworthy, believeable, and morally true through and through. Just like Abram, we need to have an accurate representation of who God is in order to really be able to believe he is who he says he is and will do what he says he is going to do. As you know, we come with alot of past experiences that unintentionally shape how we see God. So how can we practically in real life unlearn the lies? How can we believe the truth of who God is and in turn have trust in him?
The first thing we can do is seek to learn and have a relationship with Jesus. Jesus is the perfect representation of God in human form. We not only have the opportunity to see his life displayed through the bible but he left us a helper, the Holy Spirit, to lead us into all truth about him. We must not just merely study the word of God or the life of Jesus. But have communion with him allowing him to speak to us through his spirit, the word, and prayer. As we seek him with all our heart we will find him (Jeremiah 29:13-14).
Just like Abram, you must allow yourself to ask God questions. If you are like me, this may take some unlearning of thinking that God is distant. God actually desires for you to ask him questions. He desires to spend time with you. He is not scared of what you may ask. In fact, these questions may be the gateway to bringing you to the truth and closer to his heart.
If you want to know God, just like any other relationship you must spend time with him. You can do this through simple things like his word, prayer, and singing songs. Even if you think you know God, there is more to know. His wisdom and love with never be reached fully on earth and neither should our exploration of who he is.
As you can see, what you believe in, especially about who God is, has a profound effect on your everyday life. There should never come a time where we don’t ask God questions. There will never be a time that he is sick of us asking questions. He loves to spend time with you! He not only loves you, but he enjoys every moment you spend with him. If you have come to a moment where you have had a hard time trusting God or maybe the thought of God wanting and liking spending time with you is hard. I challenge you to unlearn what you think you may know and learn who he really is by looking at Jesus, asking him questions, and spending time with him. Our trust is in direct correlation of what we believe. As we intentionally grow closer to God, you and I both see that he is so much greater than we could ever possibly think or imagine.
More Scripture To Meditate On:
- All Scripture is inspired by God and is profitable for teaching, for rebuking, for correcting, for training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be complete, equipped for every good work. -2 Timothy 3:16-17 CSB
- In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning. All things were created through him, and apart from him not one thing was created that has been created. -John 1:1-3 CSB
- I love those who love me, and those who search for me find me. -Proverbs 8:17 CSB
- You will keep the mind that is dependent on you in perfect peace, for it is trusting in you. -Isaiah 26:3 CSB
- God is not a man, that he might lie, or a son of man, that he might change his mind. Does he speak and not act, or promise and not fulfill? -Numbers 23:19 CSB
- Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill what he has spoken to her!” -Luke 1:45 CSB
- Then I saw heaven opened, and there was a white horse. Its rider is called Faithful and True, and with justice he judges and makes war. -Revelation 19:11 CSB