When I was reading The Hannah Anointing, there was something that the author said that stood out to me so profound that I sat my book down, adjusted myself in my chair, and began to pray. (You can see the review here: https://letlovebemymotive.com/2020/01/02/the-hannah-anointing-michelle-mcclain-walters-book-review/ ) She mentioned that sometimes she steps back and observes the areas that the devil is attacking her in. Now I have heard of taking every thought captive and making them obedient to Christ. However, I have never thought about observing the devils behaviors the way that he does ours.
As you may have noticed, there was a long period of time (it felt like forever) where I was not writing as much. I did a devotional here and there and posted some scripture, but there were not many posts or book reviews. I am sorry for this. During those times the Lord is refining me or teaching me something new. I do not want to fail to mention how much I appreciate you being here with me on this adventure called life!
On the Lord’s commands I have quit my job and am doing the only things he has commanded me to do, pray and to write. Now, even before I left my job the devil was on the prowl and trying to plant seeds of worry and doubt. He began with “Was I really hearing from God to quit my job?”. I began to pray and ask God to show me again what his will was. Thank you Abba for your patience! God showed me, yet again, it was his will for me to quit.
Then as I became confident and filled with faith, the devil started to prowl once again. “Are you sure you are going to be able to pay your bills? You know you made so much money. How can you even be sure God is going to provide? You can’t see it”. Well Lucifer, you see God’s word says that he would open the flood gates of heaven and pour out a blessing there is not room enough to receive. You see he gave me this word and the only thing he said was wildflower and when I looked up where that was in God’s word he reminded me yet again that he is my provider and I have nothing to worry about.
Then the Lord had me shift my focus from worry back unto him where I found peace. God then reminded me that our words have power! He told me to declare what I was believing him for. Possiblities are endless with him! So as I was going to the mail box that morning, I was reminded of a time where my friend was solely relying on God’s provision and she asked him for a check in the mail and he sent her just that. As I was walking out I started to declare the Lord’s provision for my family. Mind you, the devil has been trying to plant seeds of doubt about God’s provision THE ENTIRE TIME. I walk out to the mail box and see the Lord’s provision waiting in our mail box. GLORY BE TO GOD!
As I said above, the Lord had me quit my job and only gave me two directions, to pray and to write. So, as he has asked me to do, I have done just that. As I began to write yesterday, I went over my article at least 5 times to make sure everything was correct. This already is abnormal behavior for me. Then as I was reading it for the last time, I was tempted to not even send it in to the magazine. Then the Holy Spirit gently reminded me of what the author of Hannah’s Anointing said.
Why is the devil attacking me right now?
Despite the doubt and fear I was feeling I sent it into the editor. Usually the emails are brief, but what I found in my inbox was quite the surprise. The editor wrote back thanking me, saying that she loved what I wrote and she needed what was written.
So was THIS why he was attacking me?
Over the past couple days I have been taught to step back and look at the pattern of the enemy. His tricks and deceptive ways are not new. He uses the same evil tactics over and over. He is trying to discourage us and trap us in fear to stop us from doing what God has called us to do. He is the BEST liar. He can have you thinking the worst! But, what we need to do is to step back and ask Holy Spirit for help in these moments. Every single time that I have asked for help, he has met me there in my weakness with his strength. In the moments I have been attacked the most, there was a blessing on the other side or the enemy was trying to stop me from doing EXACTLY what God had intended me to do.
God is faithful, gentle, and patient. He is willing to help us when we ask. I want to encourage you to interrogate why the enemy is trying to attack you. What does God have for you in this area of your life?