A couple weeks ago I was brought to a very important decision. Was I to cripple back in ubelief or take out my sword and fight? I was overwhelmed. My heart was drenched in the heaviness I used to feel with depression. I knew I AM HEALED. I have not dealt with this in like three years! Why was I dealing with this now?
Until these past couple days I had no idea WHY depression was trying to creep back in my life. But, with snot coming out of my nose from crying, burning eyes, and extreme fatigue, I began to call out to God. The spirit would speak for me as I laid down whatever was trying to bring me back to the place I have been freed from. It felt real. I knew it was real. BUT, I knew my God has the final say and there is nothing that does not have to BOW DOWN to the blood of Jesus.
I have not written in a while. I always say that God is preparing me in those seasons that seem so dry. But really, he took the pen.
As I called upon the Lord, the Holy Spirit brought to my rememberance what he has written already on my heart. By Jesus’ wound I am HEALED. No weapon formed against me shall prosper! I have authority to trample on serpents and scorpions and the devil himself cannot hurt me. God you are near to the brokenhearted. My mind is at perfect peace when I am transfixed on you. God you do not give me a spirit of fear or timidy but of power love and a sound mind. The devil MUST flee when I resist him. I have the sword of the spirit! I am on the winning side!!!!
You see, I rebuked the Spirit of Depression. I rebuked the Spirit of Anxiety. I rebuked the Spirit of PTSD and I rebuked the Spirit of Bipolar Disorder. I know that I am healed. But, Holy Spirit said “Now is the time to FIGHT”. So with the help of him I pulled out my sword and it was war!!! I began declaring God’s Word over and over and over and the devil finally fled as I resisted his lies.
Little did I know what was coming the week after…
Blessing on blessing on blessing.
IT IS HARVEST TIME.
When we are facing trials and tribulations, the devil’s pattern seems to be the same. To try to deceive us and bring us back to where we used to be. But our SWORD and the AUTHROITY God has given us through the HOLY SPIRIT is so much greater than anything we will have to face. Another pattern that has been brought to my attention is that when there is about to be a BREAKTHROUGH, he attacks. Sometimes he even attacks after. Which is why it is of GREAT importance to always have your sword ready!!
When we face times where we are being attacked over and over, what we fed ourselves is bound to come out. I cannot put enough emphasis on fellowship with God through prayer and his word and fellowship and communion with the saints. We are to be battle ready at all times. This is a war we are in!
When you are hard pressed on every side, what comes out? Will you choose fear or faith?
God is so graceful and such an amazing helper that there is no shame if we need help with this. He said those who humble themselves shall be exalted and that he meets us in our weakness with his strength. If you need help in this arena (which I think we all can grow deeper in these areas) call upon his name. He is ready for you!
We do not shrink back, but press into his presence. We take out our sword and every deception that darkness tries to bring MUST bow!