If you have known me for any amount of time, you know I have a tendency to beat myself up. God this year, is continuing to bring me a deeper revelation of his love and break the chains of religion and law that has been trying to bound me down.
You see, I have dealt with this view that I need to do this or not do this to get God’s love. I think is partly due to environment I grew up in and the religious beliefs I was originally taught. There is a huge difference between Saul and Paul.
Saul, was law-driven, a pharisee, he knew what to do, what not to do, and everything in between. He crucified Christians, yet God used him to be one of the greatest messengers of God of them all (at least in my eyes). Saul was turned to Paul due to the love of Jesus. A love that can transform every single one of us if we have an open heart.
Many times we want these roots of religiousness to just leave. This idea of performance based loved to just disappear over night. However, the more I am realizing that growth with deep strong roots that last in a storm take a while to grow.
Let me smash some lies right now and speak to you what Jesus has spoken to me that completely wrecked me in the best way possible.
He gently spoke to me and said. “If I loved you at your darkest, even when you were living in darkness. Why would I love you less now? I am the same yesterday, today, and forever.”
Jesus is the ultimate definition of love. He died for you and I to be set free. He died and rose again, defeating all odds, for us to be able to choose to love him back. See, whether you know God at all right now, maybe don’t even believe he is real, or completely hate him, HE STILL LOVES YOU. Jesus loves you even when you have nothing to offer. When we were still sinners, God sent Jesus to die for our sins so we can be in true fellowship and communion with him.
However, we do have a choice whether or not we allow his love in. For me, it seems silly typing it out… But I struggle to allow myself to be loved like this. I frankly do not deserve it. Yet Holy Spirit speaks and says, Isn’t that what grace is? Isn’t mercy not getting what we do deserve?
Let’s smash the lie together of performance based love, shall we?
God loves you, he has chosen you even before your parents even knew you were going to exist. He is the ultimate father and the purest form of love. He is love. Will you let his love transform your heart and life? He does not love you because of what you did or did not do. He loves you because of who he is. The only reason we are able to love somewhat like him is because he loved us first. When you get your mind around that you can’t do anything to earn or lose his love you will start walking in freedom. Sometimes, this is continual process. Something you need to ask a revelation of every single day. Is that not what Paul asked for? To know him and make him known!
Saul was not transformed into Paul off of his own will, but the kind intentions of Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior. If Paul could have earned God’s love, he would have never been transformed from Saul to Paul.
You are so loved and so worthy of being loved.
I pray that God may bring you wisdom and revelation of his love for you today and every single day. The more you seek him, the more you will find him. I pray that you are protected from the lie’s of the enemy and Holy Spirit replaces it with the truth of God’s Word. I pray that you may continue to understand to more of his love and turn that into thankfulness and praise. That you may prosper in all he has set you to do. That you do not grow weary in doing good, but press forward to what is ahead. That you look at the things of heaven, not the things of earth. That your focus is set on the perfecter of our faith, Jesus Christ forever and ever, Amen.
You my friend, are so loved.