I’ve come to many spots in my walk with God where I’m like, “God, WHAT ARE YOU DOING!? I need to plan my future!”. You can talk to my fiance, my to do lists, have to do lists. I like to plan EVERYTHING. Down to the smallest detail. I still have no idea what career lies ahead of me. Whether or not I am going back to school, continuing care-giving, or if I will get an opportunity for a leadership position at church that will take most of my time. I don’t know where becoming a spouse of a soldier will take me, literally. I just don’t know. I’ve been in the waiting period for a while now. Waiting for God to point out exactly what my future withholds in Louisiana. Often times when I am a little off my faith game, I become anxious. I am blessed to be surrounded by wonderful sisters and brothers of Christ that hold me accountable if I get a little off focus.
I was once told to just ask Abba for the next step. If he gave us the whole plan would we really understand anyways?
The more my relationship with Abba grows, the more I understand it is about trusting in his promises, even if I don’t know what is going on.
I do know that “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”. ((I hold onto this verse and Romans 8:28 very tightly!))
I know that I can make a plan but God always knows what will work out best for everyone. We can think our plan is the wonderful plan, but really it can hurt people we don’t know and for many generations to come. If we just ask God to direct our steps, he will.
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths.” ~Proverbs 3:5-6
He wants what’s best for you. He is a loving father. I don’t understand a lot of the time, but I don’t think we are supposed to. His plans are far greater than we can ever imagine. It’s about trust.
I know trust doesn’t always come easy to a lot of us, myself included. We have been beat up in the fallen world we live in. However, God is far greater than anyone of this world. He loves you, he will never leave, nor forsake you.