I’ve had a little bit of a writing block these past couple days. I’ve been pretty wore out trying to do things in my own strength to say the least. (Whoops! Can you say convicted & sleepy?) However, Holy Spirit pointed me to scripture to rest in and hold onto. I’ve memorized Philippians 4 for the most part but it just really sank in.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you. I can do all this through him who gives me strength.”-Philippians 4:6-9, 13 NIV
My eyes weren’t on Jesus & on his Kingdom, they were set on the busyness and stresses of life. Papa just ever so gently, lifted my eyes to him and let me know I’m never alone, nor do I need to try to do everything on my own. Focus on him, not what’s going on in the world. Be steadfast through the trials and trust him, thank him, and just spend time in his presence. He wants to spend time with me.
It’s so funny when he has you come across scripture that you need, a couple days, hours, or maybe even minutes before you face exactly what his word was telling you. He never leaves me to battle un-prepared.
Yesterday, I went home and read a couple faith-based books while carrying on a continual prayer, pulled out a coloring book and turned on some Jesus Jamz & began singing to him (sorry not sorry to my family for serenading them at 2am), read some scripture and just soaked in his presence. All my anxiety, tiredness, and distractions began to dissipate as I just loved on him & spent time with my Father. It was exactly what I needed.
Sometimes I think I just add so much to my schedule that I slack in my relationship with God. Even though I read scripture every morning & every evening, am I really studying and practicing what The Spirit points out? & how often am I truly talking to God vs. my fiancè or Mom on the phone?
Thank-you Pastor Kim for helping me understand that prayer isn’t as hard as we think it is. That the enemy just wants us to think it’s hard to get into conversation with God when really we just need to open our mouth.
Even though I have had alot of growth over the past 17 months (All thanks to God!), I desire to grow closer to my Father. One of the things I’ve learned on my walk thus far that God’s love has no end. It continues to run deeper than I could ever imagine. Sometimes I just need to love on him a little more.